In 1973, the son of a tenant dairy farmer released the first and only gay-themed country music album. But with only 1000 copies made, the album soon disappeared and became a gay urban myth. 

Forty years later, Lavender Country was rediscovered and lauded by critics as 'resonant and wonderful...a rare act of bravery and honesty.' 

THESE C*CKSUCKING TEARS revisits the voice behind the album, Pat Haggerty -- now in his 70s and singing "old songs to old folks" at senior living facilities -- as he deals with the resurgence of a musical dream long since given up for dead. The documentary explores the roots of his courage, the politics of 'country,' and Patrick's relationship to a music industry where "you can come out as gay but you still can't get up and sing about it."